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“The Flight From Conversation” by Sherry Turkle, The New York Times, April 21, 2012 (via hyuninc)
I am not looking forward to class, mainly because it’s the kind of class that requires class discussions, and I am not the type of person to just be happy to discuss what I think. It’s just not possible. I’m not that kind of person. Bleahhh
It’s been a pretty quick month, and some (not-so) interesting things have happened:
*Hung out with the bro-hams. Haven’t seen them in so long, I guess I almost forgot they existed! But it was great seeing them; they’re the best guys a gal could ask for :) I just wish they were around more often so they can keep me out of harm’s way…
*I’ve been pretty motivated this school quarter. I wish I was like this in previous ones, but whatevs. I’m getting it done!
*I haven’t seen much of Andrew II (bf#2) or Gil (bf#1), which is kind of depressing… #2 has relatives over, so it’s been impossible to go over to his place. #1, meanwhile, has been in and out of state a lot lately, and hasn’t been keeping in touch. I personally think he hates me now, which was kind of the plan all along :/ But I think overall, I want to take a break from guys, and the sort of relationships I’ve been in lately. I find that they’re not satisfying, and thus pointless to continue.
*And speaking of relationships, I was pretty close to having sexual relations with a close friend! I was given a week to decide if I wanted to do it with him, and I convinced myself within that week that I would be dtf. But like I predicted, he wimped out, and now we’re not talking to each other again. Which is fine. I just wish we could remain friends instead of him disappearing and being fucking reclusive. He’s kind of an asshole nowadays. I made him listen to music I was currently into, and he basically insulted all of it. And they weren’t even that bad =/
*My sister bought herself an iPhone, and so I decided to start using her phone with the touch screen. It’s alright, but locking it is not very reliable, and the touch screen is much too sensitive.
*This happened in late December, but it’s kind of affected the way I act: I got a hair cut, and donated 10 inches of my hair. As of late, I’ve been having a love/hate relationship with my hair. It’s too short and unfeminine. But on the upside, I no longer wake up with rat’s nests on the nape of my neck. I also have to straighten it because it can get rather unruly, and having disheveled short hair doesn’t look as great as long disheveled hair :( And because it looks terrible disheveled, I’ve bought a few new hair products to tame it! Poor wallet… This, and using a different phone, makes me feel like a completely different person. It’s strange how the small things change you so easily.
*The day after MLK Jr. Day, snow visited the great Northwest, and after attending school the day after the holiday, we were forced to stay home for the remainder of the week (W, Th, & F!). There’s actually still remnants of the snow around most parts of town, but they all look like boulders, since the snow’s gotten dirty whilst being shoveled to the side of streets and parking lots.
*I watched Rocky for the first time ever this past weekend! And I have to say that I quite liked it :) I’ll even go further to say that it’s on my favorites list, which means I MUST own a tangible, legal copy of it! Not at all what I was expecting. Now I know why bf#1 likes it so much. I’m becoming more and more fond of many 70s movies. Now, if I had only sat through Soylent Green, also…
*The sister, an awesome friend, and I bought tickets to go see Death Cab for Cutie! This has been a long time coming since the sis and I have personally been fans for so long! I don’t know how often they visit Seattle, but I imagine it’s not very often since they’ve gotten big. According to this, they’re also visiting parts of Asia. I personally want them to perform ”Company Calls Epilogue”, but apparently the chances of that happening are slim :’( We also tried to invite a few other people to go with us (yknow, since it’s much funner going in groups to these sorts of events), but they all declined. But again, it’s whatevs, because these sorts of things to don’t happen frequently.
WHEW! Okay, that’s all for January! I’m gonna try to make sure I keep up with my personal posts to prevent conglomerate posts such as this one. Ta!
Somebody That I Use To Know | Gotye feat. Kimbra
But you didn’t have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don’t even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough
No, you didn’t have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don’t need that though
Now, you’re just somebody that I used to know
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What an unfortunate way to start the new year: discovering a ridiculously tragic song that somewhat mirrors my life. Ever since I added this to my iPod, it’s haunted me. This song unleashes all of the emotions I was feeling the latter half of last year.
I failed to transform a friendship into a romantic relationship. Just as I had expected, said friendship was ruined, and now we don’t even really talk anymore. And this guy used to literally call me every single night. For four months in a row. We still hang out but only when there are others in our company. We act like acquiantances, just like we were before. And that makes me sad. And angry. We had a decent friendship, and all because we attempted to add romance into the mix, it got ruined altogether.
Case in point: I certainly learned my lesson. I’m not gonna say that I’m never going to persue another friend in hopes that they’ll romantically love me back (after all, I’m in the middle of similiar fiasco). But I’m definitely going to consider all of the pros and cons in future scenarios. I’m going to be much more cautious, and try not to rush things, as I tend to do that sort of thing.
